August 25, 2011 § Leave a comment
I am speechless. This picture is worth a thousand words. It summarizes the entire quest of life.. OK, not entire but yes, the bad phases of our life. The ones we detest and want them to come to an end as quickly as possible.
There is one thing that I have realized over the time that the more I am in this software developing business and the more I get contracts to make efficient, fast and reliable softwares, the more I am getting impatient in life. You see, the work we do affects us in such a way that we do not realize it immediately but in a long run we do. I want my life’s curves and downs to end fastly. I want the bad phase to move at the speed of light and good phases to stay for light years 🙂 May be, it’s human psychology but for me this has increased due to the nature of my work.
I, mostly argue with myself over this and try to make myself realize what Henri Frederic Amiel, a Swiss Philosopher said,
“You desire to know the art of living, my friend? It is contained in one phrase: make use of suffering.”
Isn’t it true? Our suffering and bad phases polishes our strengths and we get to know our weaknesses. I remember that last year I was going through a tough phase, nothing was working out, everything I touched turned into dust but after few months things changed and I am glad they did. When this new phase started I realized I was a better person. I was more focused and I could understand things more clearly than before. So, I am glad that I went through that phase and I learned a lot plus I grew up to be a better person than I was.
Now, these phases come and go in our life. They are a constant part of it. Every new up and down is different from the one before and the understanding of these phases are not easy when you are going through it. I tend to try to get done with things “ASAP” but in real life things take time. They take a lot of time.
What could be better than utilizing that bad phase/time to our gain and show the universe that we believe that dawn will break after the starry black night 🙂
“View all problems as challenges. Look upon negativities that arise as opportunities to learn and to grow. Don’t run from them, condemn yourself, or bury your burden in saintly silence. You have a problem? Great. More grist for the mill. Rejoice, dive in, and investigate.”
~Bhante Henepola Gunaratana, “Mindfulness in Plain English”
So this is what I have been doing 🙂
P.s: I got this picture from http://castofhorribles.com/Dont_let_it_get_you_down – a very good website 🙂
August 24, 2011 § Leave a comment
August 16, 2011 § 1 Comment
Dear em, javo, ray and mehvi
How could be the universe so cruel that the only thing that I want at this time is the only thing that cuts me deep.. really deep and I have been working to achieve it and yet the distance between me and my goal remains the same or increases.. I haven’t experience it decreasing.. ok there was a moment when I thought that the distance has shortened but.. 😦 mummy!!
Why the wait..
As my Jani says, “sugarly sweetness comes from working hard”. I have been working long and hard.. I’ve always made sure that I enjoy it and make it worth while but I am losing it now.. I want it; need it.
I hate to cling on something or be overly insistence but this way important to me.. I have waited all my life for this and I want it now..
I miss you guys.. I wish having you guys here would/could change everything..